It would have been so great if I had written an inspiring post about new beginnings and goals for the next year. But I didn't. I spent the entire last day of 2008 in my bathroom thanking God for my vast supply of Charmin and asking sweet baby Jesus to just take me on home to glory. I realize that this is highly personal information but I have always been just a shade too transparent so I figure why stop now?? Needless to say I didn't get a post up for today until it was almost tomorrow. Chances are I will be lucky to get my Friday Jumbles posted on time. Perhaps by then I will be feeling all inspirational...we'll see. But do have a lovely New Years Day tomorrow and enjoy some blackeyed peas, which has always been a strange tradition in my opinion. I will be ringing in the new year eating plain toast and gingerale. Happy New Year, dear bloggy friends!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
I don't know what is going on, but something has definitely thrown off my groove. You know that feeling you get when you can't quite find normal you and some other foreign, grumpy, out-of-sorts you has taken up residence in your body? I know, I know...I am weird. But I am okay with my weirdness. Part of it is all of the change that has been taking place in my own life and that will just take time to sort itself out. The great thing about emotions is that they are much like clouds and they just don't hang around for very long. What do you usually do when you don't feel quite right?
Monday, December 29, 2008
Well, I do hope you people had a great Christmas. Ours was wonderful! Christmas Eve was spent in Waycross with all of the inlaws and, my goodness, there are bunches of us now. We packed in one house and ate a buffet of smoked, grilled or fried meat with all of the trimmings and a table absolutely full of sinful desserts. We did our gift exchange which has come to look something like the floor of the New York Stock Exchange as we conduct our "Dirty Santa". Then we headed back to Columbus, arriving home around 12:30 AM. We spent the entire day on Christmas in our pajamas, napping, eating recreationally (nutrition had nothing to do with it) and playing with our boys. Our boys saved their money and secretly bought Eddie and me the second season of Psych (best show ever!) which they taped to the bottom of a giant RC truck of theirs and wrapped in an unrecognizable mass of Christmas paper to throw us off. Awesome! For the last three years they have been using their money to get us a surprise gift and it gives us such a kick to see them get so excited over giving. I know I have said it before...I love Christmas!
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
I spent last night making Oreo truffles (cream cheesy goodness wrapped in dark chocolate...pure heaven!) and then I sat by the fire with my little boy in my lap watching Rudolph. I have always had a love affair with all things Christmas and I cannot help but feel a bit nostalgic watching the same Christmas specials with my kids that I used to watch as a little girl. I also find that at this time of year I miss my mother so much I can hardly breathe at times. And now that she is gone, I no longer have that link to my grandmother who was my anchor growing up, helping me to find my way when everything around me was chaos. But no matter how messy life was in my family, they always put aside what didn't matter to focus on what did at Christmas and I loved every day leading up to the moment when we could rush into the living room and see what Santa left by the fireplace for us. And we all laughed and gave and ate and we had peace on earth even if only for a season. Now that I am grown, peace is a way of life for my own little family and the moments of chaos are few and far between. But still I love every moment leading up to Christmas day and I try to savor every moment with my children during these times that will all too soon be warm memories. I pray that your time this week in celebration of the birth of our Savior will be filled with warmth and peace and nostalgia and great joy. Merry Christmas to you all!
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Monday, December 22, 2008
Have you ever allowed yourself to mentally descend to the lowest place possible? Have you ever given in to despairing thoughts and let all of the hope that usually wraps up your every day just go right down the toilet? The past twenty-four hours have been that for me. I don't even understand quite how it happens and so yesterday afternoon, when I found myself alone for a few hours, I gave myself a good talking to and reminded my heart that God WILL do what He said He would do. Regardless of how circumstances appear, He hasn't brought me to this place in my life to leave me and forsake me or the dreams that He has promised would come to pass. If you are struggling with hopelessness or despair, I pray that you would find courage and hope in Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and hope." I send this encouragement out to you, not from a high and lofty place of having it all together, but rather from the dusty road of pain and doubt and learning to live in the moment. I am really glad that I am not all alone on this journey....love you, my bloggy friends!
Friday, December 19, 2008
--Well, bloggy friends, my jumbled thoughts this week are coming to you all from another state...the great state of Georgia. This could mean that they will be 76% more southern or 53% more backward. Either way you still have to love me!
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Well, bloggy friends, it seems that our wireless router has breathed its last and so we are all sharing one computer that is connected to the web as of today at our house. Please remember that I have two teenagers, so this means I take a number and get in line. The Knology guys showed up yesterday to connect us to the lovely web and you could hear Taps playing in the background as the news came forth from the lips of the service dude. I hope to be back on schedule with my ground-breaking, life-changing blog posts tomorrow. Do come back here again and have a lovely Thursday!
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
I tried three times to write this post, saying things that mean pretty much nothing to me. I got nothing. Nothing at all in me right now. I am utterly and totally exhausted, but every stinkin’ box in this house is unpacked and there is a very pretty Christmas tree twinkling in my living room. I may be wiped out but I am awfully happy to be where I am. Hope you are happy to be where you are. Have a lovely week!
Monday, December 15, 2008
Seth Godin had a wonderful blog on Friday about headlines. (I know, when did I have time to read a blog on Friday? I squeezed in a few important ones.) And it made me think about what my own "headline" reads. What message do I advertise to others when they encounter me, especially those who do not already know me. What one sentence does my life scream to others as representative of me? I don't mean this to sound narcissistic, but we do make a lasting first impression on those around us and it is worth a few moments of my time to consider what headline screams at others from the front page of my life. Does it say something positive that would make others want to read further? Is there depth and substance and something other than self? Is the fragrance of God wafting from the front pages of my life enough that the casual passer-by is compelled to take a closer look? Just some questions to consider. Have a lovely Monday!
Friday, December 12, 2008
--Today is the last day I will live in Lake City. What a great 4 1/2 years this has been. I heart all of my special friends here. (sigh)
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
So, my inbox has over 250 emails in it, most of them unread, my fingernails and toenails are hideously neglected, my eyebrows look like azaleas, I don't remember when I last read a page in the book beside my bed and I even posted a video of a dancing dog on my blog yesterday since
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Monday, December 8, 2008
My oldest son turned sixteen yesterday and, for some reason, I find it hard. It is a wonder to watch him grow up and become a man, but I just wish that could happen and I could still keep my little boy who used to dress up in funny costumes and wallpaper my everyday life with his wild imagination. I can remember lifting him out of the tub and wrapping him in a hooded towel and then watching as he would tear down the hallway, laughing wildly as I would chase him to his room and dress him in his footed pajamas. He always smelled so good at night all curled up next to me on the couch and I would pray that those days would never end. This week I get to take him to get his driver's license and then watch him as he tears down our street, laughing wildly at all that life has to offer, but this time I don't get to run after him. You don't think about such things when you are changing diapers and wiping spit-up off of your shoes. It is always a good idea to savor every moment...to remember the smell of their hair after a bath and their breath after they have eaten Play Doh. My baby is nine and he still likes to cuddle on the couch with me at night after his bath and so I am still soaking it up. If you have the chance, I hope you are, too.
Friday, December 5, 2008
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Tim Sanders blog yesterday on giving was inspiring. I have always enjoyed his teaching on the abundance mentality versus the scarcity mentality. You can read more about this in his book, Love Is the Killer App...a truly worthwhile read on business but its lessons go far beyond the business world.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
I have taken a leave of absence from my favorite news channel. Or any news channel for that matter. I have had it with all of the doom and gloom. I have never been a "stick your head in the sand" kind of girl. I want to know what is going on and stay informed about what is happening in the world around me, but as of late I am on sabbatical from negative hype and this whole "crash and burn" mentality that is the national media.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
I am moving soon. To a much smaller abode. As we await the sale of our spacious home in Florida we will be living in a cozy (and by cozy I mean really small) rental in Georgia and so now comes the task of deciding what to take and what to leave. The thing about stuff is that we get so attached to some stuff and other stuff we don't even realize we have until we open a cabinet or move something out of the way and discover some useless pile of junk that we have had for who knows how long. "Whose idea was it to buy this??" "What possessed me to keep that??" "What IS this thing, anyway?"
Monday, December 1, 2008
I have decided that, since my sister insists on being too busy to read my blog, I am going to do a little tell-all about my Thanksgiving experience. It doesn't pay to be nonsupportive in my family (insert evil, maniacal laughter here).